The only thing constant in life is change...I know I've said that before but it's so true. It's really throwing me off this week because I've never been so afraid of it before. I consider myself to be pretty spontaneous, I love adventures and I love new things and new people. And yet as this move looms closer and closer with every passing day I feel myself over whlemed with fear. I'm afraid to move. I'm afraid to leave Star Valley and the home I know and the people and family that I love. I'm afraid to fail more than anything. I'm afraid that Scott won't go to grad school (don't tell him I said that) I'm afraid that I'll never make friends like the ones I have. I'm afraid that I won't get accepted into any nursing programs. I'm scared to drive in Washington, (I know this sounds super lame, but where I come from most roads are gravel roads and when they are paved it's a two lane highway. None of this four lanes all going the same way at 90 mph and stoplights and medians?! YOu don't think this sounds so horribly scary just look at my oil pan you'll know what I mean. I'm afriad of so many things. But mostly I think it boils down to the fact that I'm afraid to grow up.
This is a picture I took of a sunset behind my house in S.V.
change is good! SO GOOD! if you want to know i would trade places with you in a heartbeat. you are SO lucky to be going to WA and to have a husband that loves you more than life. you are so lucky that you are in a place with life that you get to be trying to get into specific schools and hoping that scott will go to grad school. i love you and you my dear will make friends like that! and you are not losing any friends back home... we will all still love you and come and visit and send you care packages :) love you. cant wait to see you!
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