Monday, May 24, 2010
Here I am again on a monday night trying to get over a horrible case of the monday's! Today has left me worn down, stressed and frazzled at best! With work demanding more and more of my time and efforts, school with it's ever increasing work load growing and my body tired, cold and begging from more then 6 hours of sleep, I'm stuck staring at my computer screen wishing I could will the paper I have to write written, or that my art power point on Picasso would arrange itself.
This last week has been crazy, draining, fast paced and left me gasping for breath,making me gather every ounce of lost energy I can just to make it through the day.
Life, and people have a way of carrying on and growing changing and leaving us behind. I went home for a quick weekend visit and was faced with people I haven't quite resolved the past with. It's not that we ended on bad terms. It's just that too much has happened between us for us to be friends. We still love each other in some sence of the word, we're just not sure how that works out. Me engaged to be married, them all starting new chapters of their lives.
This crazy game that we call life, it has to take backs, no re-do's and no guarantees. I think what I've gained and come away with from this last hellish week is that you need to live in the now. The past is to learn from, not to live in. We need to love who we are with and whatever point we are at. Not yearn for long gone yesterdays that will never come again....
P.S. I took this picture! I love it...it reminds me that Christ loves me enough to die for me. And that God loves me enough to let his son atone for me! God is love.